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So, I don’t think that was working. Well, to be fair to myself, I only did what I was instructed to do. I wrote 2 sides of A4 of the journal. NO MORE, NO LESS, just as Lezka requested. You have to start somewhere, and routine and repetition will be comforting. With time I’m supposedContinue reading “Chapter 4: The Notebook – pages 3-4”

Thanks to the German healthcare system, we’ve just had our routine check-up of bloods, urine, BMI etc – all the good stuff! As expected, David’s results were not great. Don’t be fooled by those [+]s – those aren’t positive news! Even though he’s a healthy vegetarian (plenty of plants rather than chunks of cheese), hisContinue reading “Spoilers! The Latest Experiment”

When Gretchen returned home, she ate the simple supper that she’d planned earlier. It didn’t really matter that the predetermined macronutrient proportions were now not in synch with the paltry exercise she’d actually done. She just didn’t want to waste any ingredients. She never did. Her weekly meals were calculated according to nutrient variety, produceContinue reading “Chapter 3”

I had reached a low point. I left the A&E with help on how to get a Psychotherapist and encouragement to attend a Tagesklinik. Sadly, both of these had lengthy waiting lists. At the moment I was spending my days lifeless on the sofa, waiting for TheWife to come home so that we could crackContinue reading “Calling Dr Frank”

Stay with me. I am going to try something. I am a man, but not the man. That, I can tell you, is definite but at least I am genuine. Like the song says, “I’ll never see my name in lights”, not even in my peripheral vision – such is life. I was born duringContinue reading “Chapter 2 – The Notebook”

2018. Now that was a tough year. I am not sure how bleak this blog will be, plus, you might find there are a lot of misstakes, as I won’t want to reread this, so I apologise in advance. I had been in a downward spiral for 17 years or so. I had survived themContinue reading “Broken”

Day 6 18, 41, 131, 131, 20…  She had to remember the numbers but also the order. The order was important. The order was everything.  But then it all just started sliding away. And when she grabbed at one idea—determined to hold tight to it; not to forget it—another one scrambled off in the otherContinue reading “Chapter 1”

After several years of threatening to do it, TheWife and I have finally decided to write a book together. For me, it’s a kind of therapy (as you’ll see, if you should choose to read it) and has definitely been inspired by my recent stay at a Tagesklinik here in Berlin. It’s hard to sayContinue reading “The Book Of Hancox”

So it appears that I am the busiest man in rock at the moment. Well, it keeps me busy (and out of trouble). First of all, The Unreal Book, the musical podcast thing that I do with Rebecca Allen has its second chapter ready to download, stream or whatever. It’s a weird Sci-fi concept pieceContinue reading “The Hardest Working Man in Rock……….”

I returned to school and was slowly tapering off the SSRI (never, ever suddenly stop taking them, by the way). I would still have slight manic phases. I started compulsively buying LPs – this carried on until we started running out of room, so I sold them all ( I felt like a character fromContinue reading “Sleeping With Darth Vader”